It's been so long. And I've been through hard times. I was thinking if you were gave up on me or what? Because I had bad dreams but when I wake up and facing the reality, I can feel it's getting worse. Sometimes I feel so sick when it comes between you and me. You didn't say too much. You're just pretending when you're not really interested. You're ignoring when you feel annoyed.

My instinct would never betray me and its always right. For sure. I can feel your change of acts. So, better you tell me the truth or you will suffer on your own mistakes. I can't stop my tears and this incurable diseases. I called it a disease ! Because this pain really kills me too much and I cant bear it anymore. 

You're never gonna love me, so what's the use?
What's the point in playing a game you're gonna lose?
What's the point in saying you love me like a friend?
What's the point in saying it's never gonna end?


I think you need to spend time crawling alone through shadows to truly appreciate what it is to stand in the sun. I hope you will. 

I'm sorry for what I did. I cant scream when I want it so. I cant wipe my tears when I try it hardly. I just express them with words when I'm actually just can be silent.

12.54 am 
15 Jun 2015

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